I share the above quote because Callisto has been having a difficult time recently. She is not as good academically as her sister. Since elementary school we have had to reassure her that she is a smart girl, but she has a learning disability which makes it difficult to get what she knows from her head to paper in the typical ways that schools measure these things. Through the years it has improved, she is in honors in high school after all. Yet, she still struggles with sibling jealousy from time to time.
She asked me if I was jealous of my sisters. I told her most definitely, even still today. My eldest sister (Pamela Beth aka Be-Be) seems to have her life so put together to me. Three children, all doing well, very active. They have had their difficult times, but they see through them. After going to her two oldest's high school graduation parties I know that is not something I could ever pull together for my own daughters. Plus...nearing 50 years old (yes, I just told everyone you are getting OLD) and no cavities.
The next oldest (Kirsten aka Tu-Tu) also seems to be more sure of the path that she is on. Working mom but there for her two sons.
My twin (Veronica aka Roni)...well...what can I say...she gets to be a stay at home mom and her husband makes enough to not only make that possible but to include vacations for the family and even flew Callisto out the summer Sean had his cancer treatments. (Though, I did point out to Callisto that she was the first and youngest to fly somewhere on her own in our family)
And here are Sean and myself. Struggling to make ends meet. Definitely better off now than a couple of years ago. Sean getting closer to being healthy and being able to say he kicked stage 4 cancer in the butt...attending seminary...but who know what the future really holds for us.
Me...well...I work 6 days a week and we make just enough to pay the bills. We don't have much of the modern day devices that many of our family and friends have in order to do so, but perhaps that is a good thing. Though, driving home from bringing Aria back to school when our alternator died I really wish I had had a cell phone. That would have been less scary then. Though, it was a great opportunity to prove to Callisto the power of prayer. There is no way we should have made it as far as we did.
This summer is going to be very busy. Aria will officially graduate from high school on June 6th. Both girls go to confirmation camp June 16 - 22 (Aria actually will go the day before because she is a counselor this year) Aria will also have a summer job at Giant. Plus she is fitting in two weeks to Germany July 17 - July 30 with the Lutheran Youth Choir. She should hopefully be getting her license as well this summer which means if we can figure out the vehicle situation she can take herself back to school this year. Save us time and money and me needing time off of work for all those trips. (Heck, I can understand why Callisto gets jealousy of Aria...I think I'm jealous of her too)
Sean will be doing CPE at Hershey hospital. I know that will take up much of his summer. And not to be outdone by his daughter, he is looking into a class abroad during J-term 2014. Maybe it wasn't such a good thing that we all got passports.
I will continue working my six days a week...and I am not sure what we are going to do to keep Callisto from getting bored the rest of the summer. I do have a vacation week that I have been trying to figure out when/where/how I can use it...maybe just me and her will do something with it. I don't think a vacation is going to fit into Sean and Aria's schedules.
Sean's next scan should be sometime in August or September. If this one comes back clear then we can officially say remission. April 18th will be the 2 year anniversary of his diagnosis. I know I will never forget that day since I had him tell me over the phone while I was at work since I was leaving for my family since the next day was my dad's surprise 70th birthday party. And a deer ran into my car on the way there...and I was a mess...but a lot has happened in those two years.
I also remember moving Aria into her dorm August of that year...the day after Sean's last radiation treatment. Talk about some perfect timing. He was weak, he couldn't talk...but he could be there to move her into college.
His strength is still returning. Not quite what it was, but a far cry from August of 2011. And he is still working on being able to eat, but even that improves each day.
We still have a long journey ahead of us. Not sure where God is going to take us, but "Here we are Lord, send us" (Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" Isaiah 6:8)